The Internet is a safe house for those in trouble, suffering from their daily lives, an escape away from reality. You can keep things away from the knowledge centers of others in an instant and you can share tidbits of your life so fluidly, whether truthful or not. For me, it has been a haven and source of knowledge, intelligence, intuitiveness, ingenuity, education, learning, wisdom, and much, much more. I have met many people through the invention of the Internet, many whom without having been in my life, I'd be lost, deprived of the fruits of life, and a wreckage.
The Internet is a weapon. It is either for you to protect yourself, or for you to forge your own way where the way is not clear or friendly. It is a weapon to the enemies of success and ignorance, and a weapon for that which you hold so dear to you.
I have used this weapon valiantly, and I have used it ingloriously. I have many memories of mistakes hidden in the alcoves of the Internet, and many long-forgotten friends and enemies. It is because of this modern invention that I became the person that I am to this day. I have lied, I have sinned, I have defied social standards, I have done the unthinkable and searched that which should never be searched, I have been involved with intensely with dramas, and ultimately, I have grown up and been given many chances at success. It is because of the Internet that I am glorious, sensible, proud, and beautiful soul.
I got to grow up in a world not of the physical reality, but of an electronic, cyber one. I got to experience life in a physically safe, stable manner, where I was not subject to the physical harm of the real world. Through role playing, games, and forums, I was able to do this. I was able to learn lessons at such a fast rate that not even my parents have learned yet, and they're well within their years.
I was given access to knowledge, Internet articles, religion, culture, spirituality, higher thinking...
I became a beautiful soul that attracted wonderful people.. people who would eventually save, and uplift me from the dangers, toils, and perils of my innate world, as well as the one I had to deal with beyond my Internet home and lifestyle.
Growing up on the Internet has been a blessing, even after all of the horrible and despicable things that I have had to endure.
I met a lot of wise, moronic, fun, obnoxious, naive, foolish, helpful, harmful, saintly, prudent, vapid, jaded, knowledgeable, and blissful people. I have experienced all that life has possibly been able to throw at me at a social level. I may not have been able to get out of the theorizing conservatory and experience that which I intimately theorized, but now in my adulthood, I have been, and i am experiencing the bounties of my theory and logic.
I grew up from evil, hatred, bullying, harm, suffering, a want to die, and inner pity. I learned that the suffering given to me are from those who are suffering far more than me. I have learned how to be humble, how to be compassionate, I have learned what true love is from strangers to my heart.. people accepting me for the aura aura and glow of my soul. I have learned the true testaments and ways of the limitless human expression.
Somehow, within all of the hatred of the world, I have learned to be a being full of love, understanding, joy, science, theory, insight,art, culture, expression, compassion, empathy, esoteric knowledge, and true bliss.
I have, through the many people that I have met in my journey in this world both physical and cyber, become a very blessed and gifted person. I have been gifted wit the ability to reflect with selflessness, and to admit that which is to be admitted, to share that which should be shared, and to restrain that which should be kept back. I have learned a spiritual discipline that has been handed down in humanity since times that we can no longer remember the beginning of.
I am a grateful being, so young and full of wisdom, love, and expression. For these qualities, I am humbled to share, and I eagerly hope to instill and inspire in others' lifestyles for many eons to come. I have learned because of the power of communication and sharing, that i have a story, just like evry human, and that story has meaning because I have spoken it into existence as such. I have learned to pridefully admit that I will not die in vain, nor will anyone who wants success. We all have a beacon of light waiting to be lit by a runner from afar.
We all can shine, and I hope that every day, one can share their lights with me so that we may create a beacon so heavy, so dense, so vibrant, so illuminating, so empowering, that the world would fabricate a paradise for all. I have learned from many great people in history, such as the Dalai Lama and his many other reincarnations, about compassion. I have learned from Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. that we all can aspire to have dreams that will be fulfilled. I have learned from Jesus that we all should hold our tongues' judgment and embrace in human solidarity. I have learned from the Buddha that all people can achieve inner peace and greatness with discipline and guidance. I have learned from myself that I am beautiful and that I have the power to carve my path. I have learned from ordinary men and women who wake up very early each morning to put on bright smiles and teach the youth, and to inspire them to be great just like they are, and even better.
I have been blessed to experience the life that I have. I have been humbled by the dirtiness of gardening. I have been humbled by bullying because I know that bullies are those who are seeking love too. I have been humbled by the winds, the trees, the brooks, the conifers, the deciduous, the fish, the mosquitoes, the hills, the forces of nature, the poignant emotions of a broken heart.. I have been humbled by the erosion of the physical body because of time. I have been knocked from a high place into a low place, and with my inner strength, pushed right back up with a new sense of rebirth and understanding.
I have become a beautiful person, from true Hell and back again, a being who represents life in all of its mysterious ways and never gives up even when his body keeps going and his mind has shut down long ago.. with that strange, inner spirit that keeps him pushing each day.. not a clue as to where its heart originates.
I am a part of the mystery of life as well as those few kind spirits who are reading my expansion.
I have hopes, desires, dreams, wants, fears, and wishes like every man, woman, and child. I have a humanity that will never abide by the tests of time. No matter how shaky the bridge may get, I somehow make my way by drudging through. We are all like this, and united, we are a bumpy, cold, loving, caring, messy, clean, contradiction of imperfect perfection. We are a contraption of something vastly more infinite than we can perceive with our sometimes-near-perfect logic and rhetoric.
The Mystery keeps me enticed, no matter how invigorating or peeving it may get. I only hope that those whom I have been chanced by in my time will learn from what I have expounded on in this expansion, and come to trust me, love me, and invite me into their personal lives no matter how meek or ambivalent the weather may be in their fragile, yet significant worlds.
Love is not a feeling that one can merely speak or communicate; it is not said or stated, nor engraved or acted out. Love is a rhythm of life that only one can resonate with in such a way that another so close to them can harmonize with in purely undefinable expression of the soul. Love is a life force that all should behold. It is a basic human right.
