Oct 31, 2010

The transcendence beyond our current human nature

Infinite consciousness can be perceived beyond our container. We are a reality which exists beyond what we see within the mirror. Love can only be the medium which ascends us to a higher thinking.

If we cannot overcome that which we are capable of sometimes overcoming, be it the affections we feel for a lover, the happiness we get from food or activities we enjoy, or the peace we can feel when we are laying down for bed after a long day or the pleasure we get from sex or things we're passionate for, then why have the ability to be happy/loving only sometimes to begin with if we cannot overcome the Hell which we live predominately?

What a tease.. and for what purpose would we have such a tease? Our nature derives from a negative shift in the universe that has given up a helping of anger, negativity, destruction, bloodshed, violence, ignorance, and unappreciated pleasure. We are a world away from perfection, but that is the beauty beyond our world. Without pain, without sadness, without that scrape on the knee when you fell off of your bicycle.. how can we know how to appreciate the better feelings/things in life?

The human nature which we all know is a nature in which our culture has cultivated. The world we live begins to be so evil because we know that evil conquers light. Evil is powerful and we've seen what it can do; the Holocaust. Evil can give us happiness, evil can give us pleasure, evil can give us everything we want.. but for how long? How long do our pleasures last which were acquired from evil? People who draw their happiness/love through evil have experienced what I'm talking about. These people, like me at points in my life, experience that our gained pleasures through evil are short-lived; temporary.

Evil is as equal as love. Don't let yourself be fooled by outside sources who advocate that love conquers evil, because whoever is spouting to you that lie, although very beautiful and encouragingly wonderful to believe, it's not true. Black is as equal as white, if you get beyond the frequency and wave length quantities of their respective places on the electromagnetic spectrum, but it's true. Light is as equal as dark. Electrons are as equal as protons. Positive is as equal as negative. Love is as equal as hate... and Evil is as equal as good.

Basic Algebra (equal and opposite numbers cancel out) and basic theory of physics, Sir Isaac Newton's Third Law of Motion: everything has an equal and opposite reaction. When we give out love, expect an equal and opposite amount of it back. When we give out hate, expect and equal and opposite amount back. When we hate ourselves and have insecurities, the universe will give that back to us.. and you're free to interpret what I mean by "the universe." When we accept ourselves, our life predicaments, our born-illnesses, our insecurities and flaws, the universe will give us love back. The universe will give us what we send out.

This is called the "Law of Attraction" among many New Age experts.

Evil/Hate is a power source, just like good/love is. We know that we can gain happiness from both.. but why? We know that evil can give us happiness, and even in the most psychotically insane, a sense of pure euphoria. We know this, but love can do the same thing. Love can give us euphoria, love can give us happiness, love can make us smile and feel happy as well. The acquisition of happiness through evil, as we all have experiences, is only temporary. But the acquisition of happiness through love, however, we all must agree that it's not as temporary as evil.

The electromagnetic spectrum is a spectrum that has all the types of radiation on it. Radio waves, microwaves, infrared, visible light (that would be the colors we perceive with our eyesight), ultraviolet, x-ray, and gamma rays. We know that from the far left to the far right, frequency (or energy) of a given wave increases, and respectively, wavelength decreases. And we know that to the far left from right, frequency decreases and wavelength increases. What does all that mean though?

Let's say Evil/Hate was at the far left, Good/Love was at the far right, and emotions like sadness, anger, happiness, amory, and laughter were in the middle. We know that happiness from evil is temporary and we know that happiness from love lasts a lot longer. In this emotional spectrum, let's say the amount of time our happiness/contentness lasts for depends on going from left to right and right to left. We have to admit that from left (evil) to right (good), our time to have happiness increases, and if we go from right to left, the time to have happiness decreases. The frequency is played with, but in this new spectrum, what about wavelength? Just like the electromagnetic spectrum, as you move through left and right, happiness increases and decreases. But what decreases as our amount of time to have happiness increases? The difficulty. As we travel left to right, happiness stays longer, but it's harder to obtain. The easy availability to gain happiness through love is harder.
The Emotional Spectrum of The Length of Happiness versus Difficulty in Obtaining it.
W = Wavelength (How easy it is to acquire Happiness)
F = Frequency (How long Happiness will last for)
[] = The period of time it takes a person to gain happiness.

Over a period of 6 days, the graph shows how long one's happiness lasts for and how difficult it is to obtain it.

The graph shows that over a period of 6 days, one who gained happiness from Evil (stealing money) would only be content for 4 days after the initial 6 days it took to obtain the happiness, and obtaining that happiness was relatively easy. One who gained happiness from Love (earning money) would be content for 12 days, and obtaining that happiness would be relatively hard.

In conclusion to the emotional spectrum presented here:
We look to acquiring happiness through evil because it's easier, but it's only temporary. So we have to do more evil things to have more happiness. Love can give us an extended amount of time to have our happiness, but it's harder. So on one side, we have this temporary, easily-acquired joy, and on the other, we have this lasting, difficultly-acquired joy.
Transcendence of our people will not be easy.. and it's not supposed to. The spectrum of the amount of time that happiness lasts versus its difficulty in acquiring happiness shows that it will be hard... because it's supposed to. Think about that hard day of work, or an long arduous walk home from somewhere, or sowing an entire field of wheat on a hot sunny day, or dealing with a stressful environment for a long period of time. In the case with a hard day of sowing wheat on a hot sunny day (and the other cases can apply too), when the farmer is finally done, he feels accomplished and happy that his wheat is all sowed. Also, after all of that hard work, food, a cold beverage, and relaxation time will be very soothing. It's the "no pain, no gain" mentality.

There is a brilliantly easy logic behind the sense of accomplishment and great pleasure from the activities that we do afterward to reward ourself: the emotional spectrum that I proposed. Love = hard work, and lasting. Hate = easy work, and temporary.
When I talk about love being the only medium which ascends us to higher thinking, I'm talking about our ability to be hard-working toward the happiness that comes from love. I'm talking about that level of pleasure/accomplishment that comes from love. Higher thinking can only be obtained through love because the higher thinking that I speak of, which does not equate to intelligence, is a sense of knowledge beyond our physical world. It's spiritually-acquired enlightenment. It's a free-floating intuitive energy andn ot many people know it's out there.

When we look in the mirror each day, or some days for those who are in fright by their face, we have to know that none of that matters; it's not real. We have to assume that our body is only a container, that our face is only a container, and that none of those worldly concerns of our image will matter when we die. Great people in history were fat, hideous, ugly, beautiful, skinny, antisocial, and insane. But do we look away from their plethora of worth and knowledge because of it? Do we shun their knowledge and great advancement because they were fat? I wouldn't discredit Einstein's "Theory of Relativity" just because I thought his hair was nappy.

When we die, it's not going to matter what we looked like to the next people who discover our story, our tale, our knowledge because we're gone and that body that we may have spended our entire lives hating, was a container for brilliance. Some believe that the ugly/different are created to be exemplary. They are beings who exist (minus the God aspect or not) and were meant to be examples to show people how to accept new things. Look at homosexuals. They were persecuted for so long and made to be the example of what not to be. It was even a diagnosable mental illness at one point in the late 20th century. Homosexuals, after a long trial of ignorance, hatred, bullying, and murder, have helped people open up to be able to understand new things. Homosexuals are estimated to account for 1% of the US population, which is roughly 31,060 people. Times are changing and people are changing. Ascension doesn't have to be an illusive fantasy.

If we are unable to overcome the nature in which we have indulged for a great length of time, then why would we have the ability to be able to indulge in activities that make us happy through love? It's a tease. We are able to overcome, but as to people doing so, that is something that cannot be controlled. But don't deny that we are purely and objectively unable to overcome, because we are. Not overcoming our evil human nature is a matter of willpower. Will we take a happiness that is quick and easy or will we take a happiness that is difficult to obtain? Most would choose the easier route.

Happiness is something we all want whether we are pure evil or pure love. Even villains are happy when they're doing evil things.

Ultimately, we are beings of love, and we can only gain true, lasting happiness from that energy source. When we die, we will leave behind this body and we won't care what we looked like. The future generations will only care what you left behind beyond your container. When I die, people will see that I did this, I did that, I wanted to do this and that--if at all I do accomplish anything.

Transcendence is possible and it will be possible for many who know. It's like an esoteric club only for those who know about the location, and it shouldn't be that way anymore. Many are ignorant and mostly, it's not their fault due to cultural influences. It's no one person's fault to be ignorant because they were raised that way. All children are born with this "tabula rasa," which means without built-in mental content. We all have tabula rasa at birth, and as we traverse through life, we gain knowledge based on who has given it to us or what we have theorized/learned for ourselves.

We cannot forget about "tabula rasa" or we will lose ourselves. Higher thinking is the process of Gnosis forming, being utilized, and transforming. Gnosis is a spiritually-acquired knowledge which comes from higher thinking--this stuff is the ecstasy for philosophers. It's unadulterated enlightenment, and to those who have it know that it's actually tangible beyond this world. It can felt, touched, stretched, and molded. When I talk about our body being a container, I'm trying to make people become more apparent about what's being contained. Inside, there is a person who is being contained and that person is very important. That person can feel, do work in this world, affect people in this world, alter their lifestyle in this world, and even alter the universe through their own thoughts.

When we start forgetting about tabula rasa, we forget about innocence, and when we do forget about innocence, we are automatically closing off our minds to all else. We are subjecting our minds to stray from higher thinking because we have pinched off the part of our hearts where we are open to accept Gnosis. Children are born with only the experiences of hearing sounds from the mother's internal biorhythms, her voice, and the outside world. These innocent beings are born with only those experiences with sound and experiences with motion. They don't yet grasp what the sounds mean or what the experiences of motion mean, but they do know they exist, and fetal babies do dream about these alien experiences.

If we cannot transcend, then we are lost as a people. If we cannot open up to the glory of gnosis, this spiritually-potent enlightenment and knowledge, then we are lost and no one knows what true euphoria is. There is no wisdom without transcension. We have to know that evil and good are equal. We have to know that love does not conquer all, because evil can conquer love and evil has. We have to know that what we send out will initially start off as being an equal response but can change due to other forces working in the universe. We have to know that if we want something, we have to work just as hard to get it so it can come back richer and fuller. We have to know that we are born innocent because of the theory of Tabula Rasa, and we have to accept that we are raised to be ignorant.

We have to accept that we are raised to be ignorant, but we can change. Some scientists say that after our mid-twenties in age, the part of our brain that accounts for our openness and acceptance of new rationale and logic (and on my side with gnosis in mind) begins to pinch off. We no longer start taking in new ideas, new experiences, and we start being comfortable with our life and who are, even if our life is miserable or happy. At that point in our life, we start convincing ourselves that we've experienced enough of life and at this point, we will experience the same old things as before. At this point in our life, we convince ourselves that nothing changes.

It's ignorance and it can be blissful. But it's pardoned ignorance no matter how violent or irrational. With tabula rasa in mind, I advocate that it's not any one person's fault for their ignorance. And as someone with gnosis, it is my duty to show people the side of true enlightenment and spirituality if they want it. We all have the right to live the way we see fit so long as we don't invade the pursuit of happiness of others or their lifestyle. But don't feed off of evil's power and then complain about how horrible the world is, because in all reality, the world is so horrible because we're letting evil manifest on our planet. And for what price? The sacrifice of a good world with a perfect renewable ecosystem just for temporary bliss?

But although the ignorant have the right to be ignorant, I have to say that it's time to open up and enjoy the new experiences. These experiences will hurt, they'll embarrass you, you'll feel silly, you'll experience the same emotions but in a new way, and you'll feel a bit stupid, but it's amazing stuff. Gnosis is some amazing stuff, and that's what life should be all about. You can lead any lifestyle you choose to please you and still have spiritual enlightenment. You can be Athiest and still have spiritual enlightenment. You don't need the presence of a god to be enlightened nor do you need the presence of a god or infinite creator to be spiritual.

Atheist is a term that comes from Greek; a + theos, "a" meaning 'not or without' and "theos" meaning 'god'. An atheos person, or a godless person, does not need a god to be enlightened or to even have access to higher thinking. There can be a vast number of forces which we experience every single day beyond our senses and/or our instruments of perception such as cameras or wave-detecting machines. We don't know everything, but I think we as a race have the rationale that we have enough and we don't need anymore. So why try to look for anything more? Why care about metaphysics? Why care about ascension to a new plane and try to help those who don't know to know?

A pure transcendence is only done through the practice of patient teaching and advocacy. The ignorant will stay as such if the aware don't teach them. If the aware or the enlightened don't teach the ignorant, the ignorant will stay ignorant. A baby cannot learn a language that it hasn't been exposed to. Transcendence to the infinite consciousness is possible through higher thinking, and that high thinking is achievable to obtain through the many practices of this world which allows one to be spiritually enlightened. That practice is love and gaining knowledge. That can further be broken down into practices like meditation, yoga, reading a book, going to new age lectures, reading conspiracy theories, delving into a great sci-fi that introduces new ideas of civilizations on other planets, learning about ancient civilizations and the black pages of history.

Love can only be the medium which ascends us to a higher thinking. It's the only way to get past our ignorance so that we can have a better future for our children and ourselves. It's the only way us humans can do away with the toils of the past. No longer should we have to get that quick happiness through evil methods, such as drugs, smoking, lying, being superficial, being insecure, hating, robbing to get money, defalcating, purging, bullying to make ourselves feel better, anonymous sex, violence, shooting people, revenge, etc. We shouldn't have to acquire happiness this way anymore because it's ruining our world. We're allowing evil on our planet to get happiness, yes, but that happiness was created with the background knowledge that it came from evil.

Who would be content knowing that they gained a sense of greatness from a vastly negative source?

To me, that defeats the purpose and also makes the greatness largely tainted and evil. When you make something from wood and paint it, it's still wood. You haven't changed anything but its appearance. When someone steals money to buy themselves and a friend something nice, they're happy, but that happiness is now tainted with the background knowledge that they committed a crime for it. It's easier to steal someone's money than it is to work for it. Many will strongly say that food tastes best when free or stolen. I think that is because the person didn't have the worry about how they were going to get the money to pay for it, they didn't have to worry about losing anything and having to work harder to get back that spendt money and some, and they didn't have to do anything extraordinary. It's like a gift, and we all love gifts.

When we allow ourselves to indulge in the manifestation of our desires, we have to think about what source we're going to use--or even what material a contractor is going to use to build an edifice. Using wood for a 12-story edifice which will be home to many computers, file cabinets, desks, chairs, toilets, elevators, and other office-like furniture is completely inappropriate. A contractor would go the "concrete" and "steel" way before going the "wood" way.

When people use evil as a means to manifest their bliss, they have a superficial happiness and it is superficial because it's temporary.

People who hold themselves to be a part of the esoteric club of gnosis, enlightenment, and awareness know that in order to transcend to higher thinking, you have to sacrifice some things. You have to give up the lethargy of trying to manifest your desires through a quick and easy fix. Many who use negativity as a source to manifest their desires so that they can achieve happiness are the ones complaining about how miserable and corrupt the world is. Little do they know that if they stopped allowing negativity onto the planet, there wouldn't be any.

Law of Attraction: we are given what we have given.

A major principle of the process of transcending to the infinite consciousness is breaking beyond our material world; earth, space, the universe, etc. We have to realize that our body is just a container and that this physical world is only a place where our consciousness grows, changes, transforms, and is molded. There has to be a plane where all of this can take place. That plane is the universe and it just so happens that Earth is the place where we, humankind, happen to be. We no longer can afford to rely on an omnipotent god figure or force or creator to help reverse the trends we have created for our planet. Deforestation, the exhaustion of oil deposits, and CO2 emissions are a trend that we created.

Human nature is a product of nurture (remember tabula rasa), and in order to change that which we have created, we have to convert our thinking to a higher one. The aware have to teach the ignorant with patience rather than scoff at them and indulge themselves in their esoteric club of sorts. The idea of a lofty society that only privileged members can take membersip of can no longer be. We all have to work together to be the messiah that won't save this world until we step up to the plate. Both sides, and even the content middles, complain about how horrible the world is and how badly life isn't fair.

Life isn't fair because we don't say it can be fair. Life can be fair if we wanted it to be. Higher Thinking allows our world to be what we want it to be. We perceive what we want to perceive. I don't hear the person yelling at me if I don't want to hear them. Higher Thinking allows us to tap into the infinite consciousness and pull out what we need. It's like a vast plane of knowledge waiting to be radioed to our minds. And when we think, we're directly sending new thoughts to that consciousness. It's time that we all start engaging gnosis to be a main slice of our life. It's time that we humankind evolve mentally and emotionally.

We have the technology available to help all homo sapiens to transcend. What we don't have, however, are people who are willing enough to mass-create the tools needed to transcend and then distribute them. What I am meaning is that we have the knowledge to change this world, but we don't have enough people who are already enlightened who are humble enough, who are kind enough, who are ready enough to help everyone reach the level that these enlightened ones are at. Our complaints about our own world will go away when we all start agreeing on the right side of my proposed emotional spectrum of the length period of happiness versus the difficulty of obtaining it.

We all have a role and we must either find it or have someone insitll it inside of us. This is where you, the reader, will come in. Find out if you are a leader in this New Age, or a follower. Both are respected roles, so don't believe that a leader is grand and above all and a follower is pathetic and beneath all. Duality is the theory that if there is one, there must be an opposite other. Duality must be remembered so that we recall that Evil is equal to Good and that a leader is equal to a follower. A king is nothing without his followers because there has to be something or someone to rule in order to be a king. And a follower is nothing without a king because a follower needs something or someone to follow in order to be a follower. Like magnetism, one is north and one is south. They are both equal and they both attract each other.

We have to know that love is the tool needed to ascend to higher thinking so that we can be a part of that amazing hoopla called the "infinite consciousness."

Oct 23, 2010

A poem

you shall above all things... by E.E. Cummings


"you shall above all things be glad and young
For if you're young,whatever life you wear

it will become you;and if you are glad
whatever's living will yourself become.
Girlboys may nothing more than boygirls need:
i can entirely her only love

whose any mystery makes every man's
flesh put space on;and his mind take off time

that you should ever think,may god forbid
and (in his mercy) your true lover spare:
for that way knowledge lies,the foetal grave
called progress,and negation's dead undoom.

I'd rather learn from one bird how to sing
than teach ten thousand stars how not to dance"

Oct 13, 2010

I am from...

Assigned for English 12 A.


I am from children who walk without strife.
A flawless little smile so full of life.
Happy, innocent, dry without fear.
Wet without sadness; prime music to hear.

A look to my eye and you'd see no lie.
A shameless creature; nothing to hide.
But I am from windows with gouls in their frames.
I am from closets which burn with flames.

I am polluted inside without help.
From gallows of suffering, a tortured ugly whelp.
A sheep so stained of negro and blame.
I am from two families who know not my name.

For so long I've tried to impress and show off.
My mother is my sadness, my father purely dross.
My brother a maze and my sister a crutch.
Why are they blind of me so much?

Destiny, diversity, complaining, and pain.
Sorrow, depresion, anorexia, and fame.
Different, queerbait, gay, and alone.
Embarrassment, purging, selfish, and unknown.

I am from dreams which play when awake.
Constantly seing a vision that's fake.
Synonym-searching, I am from books.
Burried in classes which I never took.

Fear, doubt, stagnation, and smite.
Malice, violence, neglect, and contrite.
Psychological, expression, empathy, and used.
Longing, solitude, regret, and confused.

I am from hoping to run far away.
Cops calls and crying and kneeling to pray.
I am from times of being beaten and hated.
Hoping to burst from this facade I've created.

Bones with phantom aching from times when I was young.
Never will the scars heal; they suffocate my lungs.
Apathetic composure, a demeanor of my own.
A fabrication of my past to forget the pain I've known.

Solace, wanting, begging, and tears.
Death-craving, hope, devil, and queer.
Opression, homo, misery, and sorrow.
Cutting, self-hurt, suicidal, tomorrow?

Spiritual, loquacious, quirky, and different.
Eccentric, unnoticed, composed, and silent.
Lyers, sexuality, destruction, uniqe.
Intimidation, artistic, meditation, and weak.

Rough-house, horseplay, fighting, and bullying.
Unloved, starvation, alienation, and sullying.
Depravity, crime, smut, and contempt.
No one knows the truths I've kept.

Foster care was fun, but the bruises I'd leave.
Molestation was amazing, but I'd still keep my V.
Punched in the face or being ganged.
I'd DIE to see this world fully change.

Medical lies to get me to calm down.
Suicide in the bathtub to hopefully drown.
Stretch marks, fat, ugly, atrocity.
Low self-esteem and no hospitality.

I am from wishing that I could go back.
I am from purity which was unjustly snatched.
I am from secrets and walking with shadows.
Ex boyfriends, ex friends, burned-down meadows.

I from singing to help coexist with a hateful place.
I am from sobbing drops of liquid pain down my face.
I am from emotions which come back now and again.
I am from witchcraft, magic, spellcraft, and pagans.

Won't make it, can't do it, fail without trying.
Loser forever, worthless and crying.
9th grade is over and 12th grade was lost.
Damned, shy, ending it at any cost.

Lost in space while my body is still on Earth.
People won't get me, so I'll pretend my own worth.
I'll show the world just how much of a lie they've given.
I'll lose 50 pounds and live this life without being a hindrance.

I'll become the standard that the world has advocated.
I'll grow from being someone who has been the most kid ever hated.
I am from a lie which somehow saved my life.
I can now cope with my fears and I can now endure my peers.

I am reborn from the person that I was.
But often I cannot ignore that whispering faint buzz.
The one that reminds me of the roots I want to leave.
I am from a past that won't go away no matter what I believe.

I am now from strength which now knows my title.
I am now from drawing, creativity, literature, and idols.
I am now from crafts, constructing things for beauty.
I am from writing and journaling, making love my lofty duty.

I am myself and nothing less.
I love who I am, I must confess.
I may be from the past that I had.
But I'm not who I am because of that.

I am now passionate, eagar, beautiful, and glad to be odd.
But now I have to learn how to break this false facade.

Because I am not from smiles, innocence, and beauty.
I am not this vision of some church's glory.
I am not from pop music, dance routines, or Disney.
I am from a production of sorrow, pain, and misery.

I know who I am and where I come from.
But now I can see what I could have become.
.. or what I could have stayed.
Regardless of anyone's dismay.

I am from a society with rotting pupils..
I am a monster anew with new scruples.
I am a "faggot," but I am a person.
Before any judgment, I deserve this.

A chance to be free of all given sin.
I am from goodness, all from within.
I am from growing up too fast.
I am from punishments that ended with a blast.

I've always asked myself, "What could I have done?"
"To deserve such a sentence to be so unloved?"
Why is it that I was always being so hated?
I sometimes wonder if I've become jaded.

Rain, nature, weather, and seas.
Victory, inspiration, power, and trees.
Voice, word, speech, and humanity.
Signals, omens, cures, and vanity.

I am from asking the world to change for me.
If not, I'd die just trying to see.
If this world could learn from my own past.
To unite with pain to create a peace to last.

Oct 2, 2010

Satan is a Thought-Form Energy


I am a good person who leads not only myself but others as well to be good people and to do good things. Contrary to what many will say/believe regarding those who won't accept the Christian King as their savior, but I am not descending to this Hell of perpetual liquid flame and brimstone that they claim is real and I will not suffer when I pass on.

This is a reply that I gave to another person who told me to find "the truth." This person stated that Satan is easy at tricking the mind, and that's all Satan wants to do to us humans so that we won't ever realize "the truth" or come to it. This person posted a video regarding a song named In the Words of Satan by The Arrows, and this person claimed that the truth is in the song. They also stated that this "truth" is The Bible and is in The Bible. I stated that Satan is a thought-form spirit/energy, which is a spiritual energy which is wrought into existence just by the mere thought or belief that it is real. Thought-form energy is typically triggered accidentally by one's paranoia or fear. I gave the classic example of the boy/girl fearing the non-existent yet somehow very real bogeyman.

This response somehow connects with a piece that I wrote called "A Spiritual Riddle."

Proof is something that you need to see, to hold, to feel, to touch, to smell. You put so much significance on your bible, that it deters you from actually seeing how retarded your thinking is. I have proof of Mother Earth and many other spirits and gods just by looking all around me and feeling them from within. I have proof not only from looking at the trees, the ocean, the sky, the universe, my veins, your veins, but I also have proof by how much good I have given myself by transforming my life in the name of Mother Earth.

I have changed from evil to good without the Christian King and in the name of Mother Earth. I have that proof. I can prove that I went from straight F's to straight A's; I can prove that I lost 50 pounds; I can prove that I went from 0 friends to 500 friends; I can prove that I preach goodness and peace; I can prove that I changed from hateful to loving; I can prove that I do good in this world for my world--all without the name of the Christian King.

Your proof is The Bible. My proof is my own power, my own determination to do good and become good, and the Earth in all its glory. My proof is not a 2,000-year-old tome that has been revised and altered based on sacrilegious exaggeration and persecution (This is the truth, look it up). My proof is what is now and has always been: Earth, and also my proof is myself and what I have done for myself and the people of this Earth.

I won't go to this imaginary Hell because you tell me I am. I'd only go there if I took part in the belief. I don't, so Satan, Jesus, Heaven, and Hell are not apart of my afterlife. I won't burn for all eternity for not accepting Jesus Christ as my savior and messiah. I will go to my afterworld in all its own glory and I will live in peace and harmony. I am a good person and I actively do good in this world. Hell should not be an option for me just because I don't accept my goodness and my care as coming from Jesus.

Why can't my goodness come from myself and my own power? To me, it seems that the Christian King is overzealous and jealously greedy. Here's an analogical thing for you: To me, it seems if you don't give charity for HIV/AIDS, you'll get punished, even though you gave charity for Leukemia. Jesus/Christianity would be the HIV/AIDS charity and Leukemia would be my own set of gods and faith. My point: As long as I'm giving charity, why does it matter?

I have practiced witchcraft and magic for 7 years now and I have been a witness and a conductor of miracles since then. I have seen, done, and experienced remarkable things based on the belief and power of my faith and similar faiths that are Non-Christian. I have healed/cured a strong viral sickness in a friend with my witchcraft. I have blessed and offered positive energy for a friend who was going through tough times with her parental guardian--which ended up working and calming down the stressful atmosphere for a time.

I have danced at night and at midday in the name of the Rain God and Water Nymphs of the skies and have made it rain in front of an audience, and with just a friend and myself. I have made the clouds move with my mind to block the sun. I have casted Norse Runes to win not only a $15-$25 Burger King gift card, but also helped a lover win $10 on a lottery ticket. I have healed my own aches and pains after a surgery by using my hands and emitting healing energy--the pain stopped permanently. I have meditated and seen vivid worlds and scenes that one could only see if dreaming.

I have spoken to trees and learned their story and I have spoken to the wind and was told of rumors about me, stories, and omen. I have listened to the call of Mother Earth and went on vision quests--once coming across a deer in broad daylight and running with it in pure euphoria. I have been healed by a reiki student of all stress and pain. I have conducted séances with an audience and I have spoken to spirits all my life. I have told fortunes and future and pastimes of people of which were %80-100% accurate. I have felt the energy of Mother Earth surging through me during moments of happiness and sadness. I have banished my apartment of evil spirits and have also banished evil spirits from others' homes as well.

I have walked with Time and Space in dream and astral projection. I have had out-of-body experiences where I am at another geographical location or in another room in my apartment--once I saw the clock in my kitchen which said 2pm, I got up, and it was 2pm. I have celebrated the many holidays of the Celtic-influenced Wheel of The Year of Wicca and have had blessings and gifts because of my celebrating. I have casted love spells for myself which has drawn healthy love toward my way. I have once thrown an energy ball with a message to a friend, and she got it, knowing what I said. I have once had a mind-reading session and my friend Yulia saw the red flower that I was thinking of. I have once astral projected into a world inside of my friend's mind over the phone and we both could see the same exact things--and it was live to.

I have once prayed to goddess Athena and have asked her to give me the wisdom to pass a test on a part of a book that I forgot to read. I got an A. I have once prayed to the Christian King, and I have never heard a single word or felt a single omen. I have once prayed, countless to Jesus, and have never had a sign. I have prayed to Mother Earth, and she has/had listened to me and given my results. I have gone to Church before and felt no divine energy or uplifting god feeling--I only felt the wonderful feeling that is good humans working together to go great for this world. I have and I still do, told people "Smile, God loves you" if I saw someone who may have been having a bad day or was upset. I have, even though I'm not Christian, spoken to people as if I were Christian so they'd understand my beliefs without any judgement, even though they were secretly Pagan beliefs by origin, and they have agreed and felt the same way.

I have done a lot of good in this world and have experienced a lot of good in this world... but I have also done some bad things and I'm not necessarily proud of, but happened and I can't take it back.

With good, comes the bad: In the past, I have casted horrible spells on people out of anger and they have worked. I have once created a voodoo doll and sewed the lips to make a person stop causing stress and to stop speaking to a friend, and it worked. I have casted a spell to make someone have a bad day, and it worked. I have once made a person's car hood catch on fire out of pure anger in the middle of Winter without any possible way of it catching on fire--I kept imagining them surrounded in fire and burning alive. I have once begged that bad things would happened to someone that I hated dearly, and many bad things have happened. An old friend of mine has caused an Earthquake before and prayed every single day for an enemy of his to die, and he got cancer and his entire family went from semi-wealthy, to poor. I have once placed a curse on somebody which came true.

I have gone through a lot in my life and I have done a lot in my life on spiritual levels. I know what the truth is and I've seen "the truth" for myself. I don't care what you or myself believes in, I only care that we believe. Faith is a wonderful things and it's a great tool to d good things and become good things. I don't need the Christian King to know that I'm a good person and that I'm going to go to a good place when I pass the physical realm into the spiritual one. I don't need a 2,000-year-old tome to tell me how to live my life, how to be good to people, and what to abstain from. I only need myself, my faith in mankind, my love for the earth, and my ardor to do good and be good.

You can delete my posts or my comments as you are given the right to, but you won't be able to rebuke in my mind that I won this argument or that I don't have a good ethic or set of beliefs. I am a good person, I will go to a good place when I die, and your bible and your mouth isn't going to persuade me otherwise.

Blésséd be.